dream without you

Last night, you said you love me
Last night, you said you needed me
When I woke up, I never saw your face
When I woke up, you never left a trace
And if there's nothing I can say or do
I'll sing this song, I wanna sing to you
I don't wanna dream if my dream is without you
I don't wanna sleep if my dream will only be blue
I don't wanna hear the words, I don't wanna feel your touch
All I know is that you hurt me so much
You said that we would stay together
I thought that we would be forever
I never thought we'd ever part
But now I have a broken heart
I wonder why I never understand
But I understood when I saw you then
Boy, it's been three years since we part
And all those years I never had a change of heart
I'm not asking you back, I just need a friend

fashionista ♥

ballerina. like this?

sahabat yang selalu ada dari smp sampe sekarang :"D

CHRISMA PURWA MAHENDRA (UKA)

hei look! my hair is new :D

if you and I

Here I am, standing close to you
And it's still so far away,
So many times, I tried to say,
But my heart was afraid

Look at you is all that I can do,
Like a silly girl, I stare
'Coz you might leave me when I reveal,
What my heart is really feeling
 

If I could just say the words,
All the secrets in my heart and in my soul you'll hear,
Will you take me in your arms or let me go,
Our lovely days will they just fade like whispers in the wind?

If I could just say the words,
All the secrets in my heart and in my soul you'll hear, 

Can't you see the love I hide slip through my eyes,
This silly girl so scared she just can't say "I Love you."

Here I am, holding on to fate,
What we have may never change
'Coz you might leave me when I reveal,
My lips will seal the love I'm hiding.

 

 If I could just say the words,
All the secrets in my heart and in my soul you'll hear,
Can't you see the love I hide slip through my eyes,
This silly girl so scared she just can't say "I Love you."

someday ost. crazy little thing called love

I don’t know how much longer

That I have to put up with everything

I’ve been hiding all the truth inside my heart

Everytime we meet

Everytime you turn face to me

Though I look indifferent

Do you know how much i have to force myself?

Can you hear my heart calling for you, loving you?

But I can’t open my heart for anyone to know

Can you hear it?

My heart keeps waiting there for you

Waiting for you open it

and hope you will realize..

Someday

Though I love you

Though I feel

but deep down inside, I don’t dare to tell you

Everytime we meet

Everytime you turn face to me

Though I look indifferent

Do you know how much i have to force myself?

Can you hear my heart calling for you, loving you?

But I can’t open my heart for anyone to know

Can you hear it?

My heart keeps waiting there for you

Waiting for you open it

and hope you will realize..

Someday

Can you hear my heart calling for you, loving you?

But I can’t open my heart for anyone to know

Can you hear it?

My heart keeps waiting there for you

Waiting for you open it

And I hope you will realize

That this person loves you

Please I hope you will know

Someday

sebagian foto liburanku ^_^

I say FUCK YOU!

HAH bencana apalagi yang mendera hidup gue? gue ga kenal elo ya. terserah gue ga peduli lu anak temen nyokap gue yang udah meninggal ato bukan. ini urusanya gue liat individunya elo. lo tau ga sih, lo tu ngganggu! ganggu hari2 gue! lo siapa gue ga peduli. lo mau kenal gue, inget gue dulu waktu gue sd pernah di bawa nyokap gue ke rumah lo, itu semua gue ga inget dan gue ga tau apa2. please lo jangan campurin kehidupan gue. gue pusing.

oke pertama gue emang ga masalah waktu nyokap gue nyeritain lo. gue pikir lo cuman pengen kenal sm nyokap gue karna nyokap gue sahabat bokap lo. titik. tapi setelah itu gue mulai ga suka karna lo punya maksud tertentu deketin nyokap gue. untuk cari tau tentang gue.

awalnya gue udah ga suka tuh waktu nyokap gue chat2an sm lo dan nyokap gue ceritain tentang gue. tapi gue biarin dulu karna gue pikir cuman sampe situ aja. gue ga abis pikir ternyata lo menjurus ke yang lebih dalam dari apa yang gue bayangin. kalo cuman minta nama fb it's ok that is no problem. tapi kalo udah minta nomer hp dan lain lain. lo bilang lo mau kenal gue lebih dalam, mau ngajak gue jalan2, tiap hari tiap menit sms gue. tiap gue online lu pasti nge chat. apa apaan lo?! itu udah ngusik kegiatan gue tau ga!

feeling gue udah ga bener tau kayak gitu. lo pengganggu tauga. dan gue udah bisa ngebayangin gimana jadinya kalo gue tetep nanggepin semua sms dan chat lo yang ga penting itu. semuanya basa basi! dan lo SOK TAU tentang gue. itu yang palin gue ga suka. bukan gini caranya berteman. gue mencium niatan2 ga baik disini. lo sengaja kan deketin nyokap gue trus lu tanya2 tentang gue dan finally lo bisa gitu aja dapetin gue?

sori, gue ga berminat sm lo. tiap hari gue ladenin sms lo, pake jawaban sesingkat mungkin. gue pikir lo bakal jengah ilfeel jijik dan kawan2nya, setelah menjauh dari gue. tapi ternyata, malah enggak. lo makin gencar sms gue, tanya2 tentang gue. bahkan lu nyuruh nyokap gue buat beliin gue pulsa hanya untuk bisa smsan sm lo? woi lu pikir lu tu siapa jing! gue ga suka tipe cowok kayak lo!

dan gue yakin 1000 persen, pasti nyokap gue ga bakalan suka kok kalo ujung2nya lu kayak gitu. nyokap gue, ga segampang itu ngasi gue ke orang yang ga bener2 srek buat dia. hh lo salah milih orang. lo salah pilih keluarga.

simpen dan kasih aja ke orang lain, angan2 lo itu buat ngajak gue jalan2 dan sebagainya. gue sama sekali ga berminat. dan maaf gue ngomong kasar tadi samal lo. karna gue ga suka di brisikin kayak gini. gue jengah. gue mau lu tu biasa biasa aja. gausah offer kayak gini. berteman ya berteman aja, tapi ga kayak gini caranya. gue ga suka. dan bahasa lo juga nyantai aja gausa lebay kayak gitu. sekian.

etseeeh ganteng ga ganteng ga? ganteng dong, cowok gue..... OOPS! mungkin entar kalo gue udah jadi konglomerat jadi bisa oprasi plastik biar jadi cantik huahaha. sedih amat kayaknya.ini jirayu laongmanee pemeran utama di suck seed. yaaa sebenernya gue sendiri belom sempet nonton film nya. udah keburu abis T_T cuman bisa liat trailernya di youtube. sedih sedih sedih. gue jadi semakin yakin sekarang kalo cowok cowok thailand itu, ga kalah cakepnya sama cowok cowok hollywood macem taylor lautner. stuju ga stuju ga? stuju dong harussss ^___^ emangg kenyataan ni cowok cakep bangeeeeeeeeeeet ampun ampun. tapi umurnya masih 15 tahun yang bener aja cowok setampan dan sedewasa ini masih 15 tahun? gak apa apa, beda 1 tahun doang kok sm gue cieee mihihi :* masih bisa kok masih bisa hahaha.

ganteng ganteng ganteng hei ganteng kamu ganteng sekaliiiiiiii <3 tak kuat tak kuat!!!! 11 12 sama mario maurer ahahaha :P